22nd Feb – 1st March
This week felt reflective. Not dramatic. Not chaotic. Just layered. Some wholesome moments. Some uncomfortable truths. Some reminders that I’m still 23 — even when I behave like I’m 37.
☕ Small Wins
The biggest moment of the week happened at 1 a.m.
One of my best friends from school — and I don’t have many, maybe two or three real ones left — called me. He was glowing through the phone. Blushing. And he said, “Bhai, tu chacha ban gaya.”
He had a baby boy.
I don’t know why, but I subtly cried. Not loudly. Not emotionally collapsing. Just soft tears. A new life beginning. Someone I grew up with becoming a father. That shift felt heavy in a beautiful way. I love him. I already love that kid. It’s strange when your childhood circle starts becoming parents. That’s time moving.
Another beautiful moment — one of my favourite creators at my job completed their 11-minute AI film. And man… it’s insane. The sound design, the visuals, the dialogue delivery, the narrative flow — it’s alive. The story breathes. It’s not just AI. It’s art. I was genuinely astonished. I’ll update this blog when it goes live so you can see it too.
They invited me to their celebration. That was such a wholesome moment. And here’s something about me — when someone brings me into their joy, I get emotionally attached very fast. Like, “Oh man, this person did something for me.” That feeling makes me bond deeper.
And that’s also one of my flaws.
Because then I start living between two poles. Friends here. Friends there. Different circles. Different energies. And sometimes I feel like I’m stretched. I can’t be fully present in two places at once. That internal pull is something I’m still figuring out.
Also — my first-ever friend from the office threw a house party. After almost two years, I attended a proper house party again. And weirdly, it reminded me of college. Those weekends. That lightness. That “nothing serious” energy.
I don’t usually like parties anymore. I’ve become very selective. But this one? It felt wholesome. It felt like revisiting a version of myself.
And it reminded me — I’m just 23.
But I won’t get addicted to that. As Naval says — don’t drift into pleasure loops that dilute focus.
Other small wins:
- Roaming Mumbai at night with AK and Om.
- Hopping cafés.
- Eating junk food.
- Seeing Mannat (and realizing familiarity kills excitement).
- Subscribing to Harvard Medical School’s newsletter consciously.
Quiet wins. Emotional anchors.
🏋️ Health & Care
Health is stabilizing.
My bloated stomach is slowly going away. Veins slightly popping. I’ve been consistent in the gym for over a month now. And the only rule I follow:
Even if I wake up at 11 a.m., I go for 20 minutes.
That’s it. No drama.
One bad eating day happened. I’m not proud. But I also understand why. Emotional hunger sometimes disguises itself as physical hunger.
Overall — steady. Controlled. No spiral.
💻 Work
Work was steady but inspiring this week.
The 11-minute AI film completion was the highlight. Watching someone push storytelling like that made me rethink my own creative standards. It reminded me why I love this space.
When you see someone execute at that level, it does two things:
- It inspires you.
- It silently pressures you.
But that’s good pressure.
Other than that, I’ve been thinking deeply about comfort. I asked SG something important — about feeling like I left myself somewhere while doing this job.
He said:
“When your bank account buzzes, you start feeling effortless. Like you’re getting something even if you don’t do anything.”
That line stayed.
Comfort is dangerous.
Mediocrity doesn’t announce itself.
It just slowly replaces hunger.
🧠 Brain Refreshment
https://www.instagram.com/p/DUrxhAmEmtH/?img_index=6&igsh=ZGgybGJjbjhydnQ4
I read a Naval post that basically rewired my brain.
“You have one life. Don’t settle for mediocrity.”
“If you don’t commit to meaningful work, life will fill your time with busy work.”
“If you don’t lie awake at night thinking about it, you don’t want it badly enough.”
And this one hit the hardest:
“When you truly work for yourself, you won’t have hobbies, weekends, or vacations — but you won’t have work either.”
That concept is wild.
We are trained to separate hobby and career. But what if there’s no separation? What if your obsession becomes your structure?
I also realized something uncomfortable — I live too much in anticipation. I’m constantly thinking about the future. Naval wrote something like:
Most time is wasted anticipating something instead of engaging with what’s in front of you.
That’s me.
And I want to go back to that version of me three years ago — the one who created music without thinking about ROI. The one who could roam alone without feeling lost.
📖 Learning
- Comfort can create mediocrity.
- Being busy is not the same as building something meaningful.
- Emotional attachment to people who include you in joy is beautiful — but it requires balance.
- You can relive moments without regressing into them.
- Anticipation steals presence.
📚 A Line from a Book (and beyond)
“You have one life. Don’t settle for mediocrity.” — Naval
That’s not motivational.
That’s a warning.
Next on my reading list:-
https://sajithpai.com/personal-information-management-assistants/
https://x.com/CaVivekkhatri/status/2026976168029864414?s=20
🎶 A Song I’m Listening To
https://open.spotify.com/album/6xUlvwWAmelBN0VLU4KYGd?si=1kttOxNRQoWGPvGLCpplbg
– Raja Hindustani Album – King
💭 Closing Thoughts
This week felt like contrast.
A friend became a father.
A creator finished a masterpiece.
I attended a house party after two years.
I felt inspired.
I felt stretched.
I felt slightly lost.
I felt grateful.
And I’m understanding something slowly:
I don’t want to escape into parties.
I don’t want to drown in comfort.
I don’t want to anticipate my life away.
I want to build something meaningful enough that I don’t need escape.
And maybe that’s the real growth.
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